Mood:  don't ask

Well, it's not been a good past few days... but I'm still here and working on things. I think people think I'm crazy. I'm tired but kind of high from the pills i took tonite. Yesterday was a turning point for me. A big one. I'm upset with myself and my mom can't trust me anymore... That hurts a lot and I know I don't deserve her trust. I went to the church for the bible study on the new testement... it was good. I really like the preacher there. I've decided to do my re-affrimation (like baptising, a renewal of vowels) as soon as I can. Mom and I are joining the church then too. I'm not sure what to say or do before or after the re-affrimation. But I want it to be special and really work on myself and my relationship with God. I don't know if I'll be able to sleep tonite... I didn't get to talk to my friend yet.. or I may not for awhile... sucks. O well.. I'm kind of weird right now, so I'ma go for a bit...

-Katie